have you ever noticed how much time people spend on their cell phones?  I mean really ever noticed?  As your getting on the bus you see the young businessman sitting down with his "iphone" out scrolling through the internet or just listening to music.  I am beginning to realize that the world that we live in now is clearly the "mobile" world where people praise portability over functionality.  What I mean to say is that...what will happen to someone when they don't have their cellphone to check every 5 mins or so.  I admit that I am one of those people....I check my phone pretty much every 5 minutes or so....I even have all those nifty ring tones people get for one another.  I just don't understand why I have them really...that is...until I moved out to Puyallup.  Personally, I would NEVER want to live out there, but there are many people who think otherwise I'm sure.  Being so far south I realized that having portability and such are a godsend since I live in a room with a bed basically (oh and leeching internet off of the neighbors :D). 

I have been so disconnected with life without these belongings that I am now becoming more dependent on them and therefore I feel like my life has taken a hit in the electronically dependent area.  Oh wells...random..I'm sure this made no sense...but then again.. it is MY blog and so meh =p

lord knows i want to ramble so hard right now...but i can't compose all of my thoughts together.  so i guess i'll just throw everything out in one big jumble and sort it out tomorrow.  i hate myself more than i've ever hated myself before.  why am i always such an idiot...i swear to all that's holy that whenever i get a break...i get shafted again and again.  it's like god likes to watch me fail...it's like the 30 billionth season of friends and god has the popcorn and tivo set up ready to go.  Lets pause time and watch james...oh there he goes.....umm...(fails)...Ahhhh such is the comedy.  or even on a better note....why am i so concerned... why am i so distressed.  i've never felt this way before...i want it to go away so tomorrow i will lift until i can't feel my arms and legs....and then run till my chest hurts, i can't breathe, and am on the brink of oxygen deprivation.  because that's how i feel right now...i can't breathe....i'm getting dizzy and i can't stop picturing moments....moments of happiness, pain, tribulation, humbleness, and just being in awe... of god's "wondrous things"

i've noticed that throughout my life, the use of the phrase "i'm sorry" has probably been more than double the amount my name has been said/called.  I am personally at fault of this since I constantly say "I'm sorry" regardless of what was previously said.  It seems that this phrase also gets thrown around a lot more than the simple things that people should say to one another like "hello" or "thank you".  That leads me to other things people say more than what etiquette recommends we do.  How many times a week do you hear people say "damn" or "f*** you".  Why is it that we tend to use more negative terms out of context to share our emotions with one another.  Do we have to degrade ourselves down to the simple language of "this guy said like...s*** and then i was like oh f*** no....f*** you man...".  Do we feel better when we call each other b**** or stuff like that.  I think as a people, we've become much crueder than our parents era of young men and women.

On a side note...

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours


I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

if you think about what you've done last year what comes to mind...honestly... go ahead...take time to think about it.  Was it all of the happy times you had or do all you remember were the negatives that mad you sad.  Could it have been all of the friends you made....or the bridges you've burned.  Well whatever they were...be it good or bad

FORGET ABOUT IT

The new year is upon us and it's time for you to stand up and be your own man/woman.  This year will be different for us all..venturing out towards new horizons....bringing our friends and family with us.  Go...and run as far as you can....not stopping to take a breath....not pausing because you are tired....run and spread your arms in hopes you can fly.  This is 2008...a new year...a new beginning...another chance...to either: do it all again or do it even bigger and even better than before.  God bless you all...


p.s. 12 more hours.....andddd she's back